On Valentines Day (2015) my husband and I were in a major car accident that turned my life upside down. In the past month I’ve faced some of my biggest fears and been thrown into the deep end of trusting my body’s healing process.
My connection with my feminine body, untamed instincts and experience in working with the energy of my feminine center held me through the most frightening experience of my life.
I was surprised by how the sensual work of having a solid and sacred connection with my feminine body and the devotional journey of Awakening Your Inner Woman had prepared me to face my most frightening challenge.
In the hospital I saw, in new light, just how powerful this work of inhabiting your feminine body and knowing how to draw on your feminine Soul, instincts and cyclic wisdom is – for guiding, holding you and healing you through, even the most painful and traumatic experiences of life.
The scariest moment of my life was the second when I realized that the car accident was going to happen. There was a loud bang, as the back left tire blew up. I sat up straight in my passenger seat, held on with both hands and at once froze with fear while becoming present in every cell of my body – as ready as I could be for whatever was to come. At a 110km speed the car spun out of control and banged on to the side. The van rolled twice before finally coming to stillness, landing roughly on the right side.
The commitment to be fully there became my practice and focus as I struggled to face the injuries to my legs and arm, the blood all over my body, the ambulance, hospitals and surgeries that followed.
The biggest challenge when you meet any kind of trauma, challenge or even expansion is staying in your body. Staying fully in the experience with an unwavering commitment to be here even when it burns. To sit in the fire, as I like to call it. This willingness to stay with ourselves, is the biggest healer.
When we escape or leave our bodies we lock our most vulnerable stories in our bodies and disconnect from the inner voice that will guide us through to the other side.
We have to commit to come home to ourselves again and again, to bring the kiss of our devotional presence to our tears and inner wounds.
My connection to my Inner Woman helped me survive my car accident by providing me an inner sanctuary amidst the fear and trauma. I leaned into my feminine body to remember my truth, power and amazing healing abilities when I felt weak and scared. I had the soothing support of connecting with my feminine center and pelvic bowl to be able stay with the trauma, fear and challenges that came rolling in from the moment the car accident happened and for weeks to come afterward.
And perhaps most importantly, I knew how to follow my inner voice and untamed instincts in making difficult medical decision. As well as guide me in getting the support I needed to tend to the inner trauma that was stuck in my body for weeks after I left the hospital.
Here is the thing Sister, you need a solid connection to your Inner Woman to guide you. You need to love your body and know your natural sacredness to guard her when other people won’t. You need to know how to call on your instincts and deepest wisdom, when you are faced with your deepest fears and life-changing decisions to be made. And you need your wild feminine wisdom to remind you of your power and sparkly Soul, so you can rise when you’ve fallen.